[The Void]
second thoughts
2007-06-13
You know, some thoughts are meant to be delt out...only to be torn apart and reconstituted in a better fashion. Even if that means going against what you had originally said. Its human, and really...its ok.
As long as you say something about it, in acknowledgment and in a learning perspective.
I do miss some friends. And, there are some I have not totally stepped away from. Just long enough to try and see it from their eyes. And upon failing....admit to the failure and do the best you can. Do whats right by you, expect whats right by them.
Gods...how many times do I forget to respect differences? I think I needed some self talk to get to an emotional place to handle the rejection that comes along in life. Its not that they are mean, or cruel or ill hearts....maybe the eyes and ears to hear their beauty has not grown within you. And this encounter, is the seed of which they will grow for the next cycle. The sun rises each morning, and the winds blow ever across the sky. There is always a new tomorrow. And always a way to try.
I am blessed with friends that accept me for who I am, a lover that comforts me in the dark of nights. That I have a faith to stand all doubts. And sons more beautiful than one can imagine. These are things to remember, on days like this. Where I feel its us against the world. And, there is no reason for me to continue with what I am doing nor to try for anyone I care about. I am not saying I will come out in rose petals. But in my actions I have back my self respect toward how I treat my friends. And that....means alot to me. My friends, do expect me to take care of myself. And to not fall into despair and torture befitting a child. And, that is exactly what I intend to fix. I am not a child. I am a friend, a lover, a sister and a damn good heart.
Tell your friends today, you love them. And appreciate them. God knows I could have used that today. You really don't know when your friends need to hear it, sometimes...they don't even know they need to.
SAVIOR (2007-06-14)
Dito :)
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